what a day it has been for me

Today was a busy day for me but when is it not a busy one. Today I feel extra drained out. I think Iam stressing out alittle with my classes lately. Iam trying to do so many things at one time that I don't let myself rest for one moment. I know I just don't want to be behind in anything, it is not just school but work and at home and trying to planning my wedding. Who ever said that planning a wedding is not easy and requires alot of work was not kidding. I have taken a break with my wedding plans for now, I really want to just focus with my studies. Maybe in springbreak I will start up again but for now Iam going to take a break. Man it is hard to be a mom and a full time student and work full time. I tell myself sometimes "what did I get myself into" but then I realize that I just have to put up with it. and I always say hard work at the beginning, it will be rewarding at the end. I just keep my head up and things will fall into place. Never give up and go for your dreams.

V-day

Well I had my V-day early this year I took my future husband out to a nice dinner at council oaks at the hard rock. It was just not for the love day but also for his b-day. His b-day is this wednesday. Then when we got home I surpised him with a surpise party. he had alot of fun being with his friends and it gave him the chance to relax and have fun since the kids were away. we had alot of fun. at the end of everything he thanked me and said I love you so much. That brought a big smile to my face. On the actual v-day he got me roses and a card. I got him a card and for my daughters I got them a card and a little bear. My oldest daughter was very happy. I also cooked some love cookies. It was a great day.

modern love column

The column that I liked was the one that is called " To nuture again with courage". I actually got teary eye on this one. It was so sad that she lost her daughter to a illness that probably could have been preventable. I don't know how she did it, or how she got the courage to move on. It must have been very painful to move on but I don't think that she completely moved on because she was always reminded of her daughter and when her adoptive daughter almost dies it was like bad thought came back to haunt her. I thought all of her hope was gone. I don't know what I would do if I would lose my daughters. I think I would go crazy just put me in a nut house. I think the whole reason for her to love another daughter is to not to forget the pain but to put her in peace with her self.

Life is hard and when things like that come your way you can either break down and cry or you can just have to get through it some way or somehow things will change. like the saying "time will heal all wounds", its just going through that bump.
It is true we open our hearts not knowing what can happen. We don't know what can happen in our lives I believe that God gives us obstacles o those that can handle it. God knew she was a strong woman and he knew that she could love again because he sent her a gift to love a daughter again, its like getting a second chance to love.

what a week I been having

Yes I been having a tough week between working and taking care of family and trying to find time to do homework. I really don't have time for myself but today I brought myself a couple things. I think I deserve it sometimes. Especially what i have been through this week. My soon-to-be husband has helped me finally but sometimes you feel like you need an extra person. I really don't know how some people that have like 14 kids, like that tv show 20 kids and counting or somewhat like that. I have lost count with that show. I use to watch it all the time but since I have no time anymore I don't know how many kids they have now. I thank GOD that the week is ending finally but that does not mean my duties as mom is over. Well I hope everyone has a nice weekend and also a safe one.